verisimilitude (n.)- the appearance of being true or real
Just because I am a wolf-shifter, some of the humans think I have an unfair advantage in life. Truth is that I’ve really worked so fuckin’ hard to earn a place with the wolves.
And nobody knows this more than Kelsey. My personal Angel.
As a matter of fact, she is the Highest of all the Angels– healing my life in every way possible: physically, mentally, and spiritually. I don’t know what I would do without her.
She is the one healing me now.
“What were you THINKING?!” she says. I groan. I’m thinking she said that more to herself than to me because I’m too busy going in and out of consciousness to care what the hell she is saying right now. “Attacking a grown bear like that?! You’re still early in your training.” I hardly hear what’s being said because I’m laid out in the snow with my head ringing. I took a grizzly paw to the head and now there is blood running down my face and into my eyes. Pain ramifies inside of me, reaching each limb, flowing like the spilt blood that’s supposed to be circulating my body. And just when it feels like all of the muscles and bones in my body are about to give way, I feel a sudden warmth.
It seeps through me and I find myself becoming one with it. Surrendering to it. Suddenly, nothing else matters. I just want more of that warmth.
I open my eyes. My vision is blurred but slowly it’s coming back. The bear I was mauled by is walking away now, its haunches covered in snow.
A white ghost.
I feel Kelsey’s hands on my head and ribcage. God that feels good. I look at her without moving my head because doing so would still hurt too much. It surprises me the Angels don’t have wings like the stereotypical angel I grew up knowing. They can still fly though.
Then I look around the glen as my body slowly replenishes. I am in snow heaven. There is snow everywhere. A white wonderland. Then I see the bear disappear into the forest. Good riddance. I will have to get a meal from somewhere else. My lips part.
“It messed me up good, didn’t it?”
“That’s an understatement. I don’t even know why I do this for you.” I feel the guilt then. Even in the pain. Because I know EXACTLY what she is talking about.
“I still care about you,” I say, ribs still aching. I wince. She was worth the effort though.
“Oh please. Just rest. I know you’re just going to run back to Her after this.” As I come to, her voice suddenly sounds like music to my ears. It’s as if I can suddenly hear better. Her powers must be working. The blood in my ears is gone. “That’s all you ever do,” she continues. Wait what? “And like a fool, I keep giving you chances.”
Left with no kind of comeback whatsoever, I simply succumb to feeling.
Then I see it. Is it…real? It’s gotta be.
The verisimilitude of the wolf in the distance is confirmed when Kelsey’s scrutiny follows mine. My wolf sense responds. It’s her.
My heart and soul.
The second we meet eyes, we lose ourselves to the primitive nature inside of us.
“You see what I mean?” Kelsey says looking back at me. That’s so unfair.
“I mean what do you want me to do? I love her. And it’s a love deeper than that superficial shit. It’s like I can’t control myself. It’s the wolf in me.”
Kelsey looks away from me.
“I know.” She sucks her teeth in frustration. Us angels are told not to fall in love with the wolf-shifters. Stupid me. That’s exactly what I did.”
Wow. She really knows how to make me feel like shit. I breathe again and my head no longer throbs. Neither does my side.
I am healed!
“Thank you,” I say rising to my feet. I meant what I said but it feels like it’s not enough. There is a emptiness I don’t know how to fill.
“The least you can do is…” She pauses and looks back at my mate at the edge of the forest. Then back to me.
WHAT?! How could… I can think of forty seven things I want to say when there is a sudden touch on my mind.
Gail. She is using the telepathy connection we share. We had just gotten out of a fight. That’s why she wasn’t hunting with me. Her voice sounds understanding.
“Kiss Her,” she says. What? “I can’t love you the way she can. We are wolves and Kelsey is an Angel. I am grateful you’re healed. So this is my way of saying thank you.”
I look at Kelsey.
Without another word, I put my arms around her and give of my soul.